To be honest, I really haven't had much to blog about as of late. I've made a little progress on my story - not word count wise, but GMC wise. I realized that my FMC wasn't much of a MC after all. She was kinda just there, along for the ride but not having much to lose. So I was able to think up a way for her to have something to lose, and in the end of course she'll have much to gain too. Unfortunately this means rewriting half of what I've already written. Meaning I won't be moving past the 30k mark for a while, until everything's changed to make the story make sense.
The hard part about that is explaining to people when they ask how many words/pages you've written. It seems that most non-writers judge our progress by numbers. It's difficult to explain why I have to go back and change things. Tho for the most part it is my own fault, since I didn't flesh out my premise or plot enough before starting to write. But it is my first serious attempt at a complete novel, so I knew I was bound to make mistakes (and I will certainly make more in the future too).
I'm working out the kinks right now with the help of a great workshop I'm taking called "Laws of Motion - Plotting a Compelling Story". The instructor, Laura Baker, is wonderful. She takes her time to really read and understand what you send her so she can give you the best possible advice. And it's a big class, so it's certainly not easy for her! If you ever get a chance to take a workshop with Laura, DO IT! I promise it will be one of the best workshops you've ever taken. (And no, this was not a paid endorsement. Considering I only have 25 followers, I doubt anyone would pay me to endorse anything LOL!)
That's about it for me. I have to admit I'm losing my enthusiasm for blogging. There are many reasons, one of the biggest ones being not having much to say. We're all going through similar things as writers, we all know the drill. I don't have anything to tell you that'll make you say "oh sh*t that's brilliant! Why didn't I think of that?!?" So if my blog posting frequency decreases for a while, don't be too surprised. I'm really starting to think this whole blogging thing (in the sense of "platform building" to get people to buy your books) is overrated. But I'm pretty sure I've mentioned that a time or two before ;-)
Until next time...!
Sunday, July 11
Wednesday, June 30
Depression and Writing – are they related?
Not to say that every writer out there suffers from depression. But I do believe depression is common, for a number of reasons. I read a great quote this morning which is actually the inspiration for this post: “depression is anger turned inwards”. That explains so much for me. I have always had anger issues and depression, stemming from childhood. (I’d like to say “I have a dysfunctional family”, but that phrase doesn’t carry nearly the same amount of weight that it once did. Now everyone says (or thinks) their family is dysfunctional.)
I’ve suffered from depression for as long as I can remember. My classmates in eighth grade signed my yearbook with messages like “cheer up, it’ll get better” and “don’t kill yourself”. I’ve gone to shrinks, I’ve tried a ton of different medications. I’m at the point where my depression has become “manageable”. But I’ve resigned myself to the fact that I will most likely suffer from it for the rest of my life.
I’ve also always loved to read and write, since I was very young. Reading has always been an escape for me. If the story is good, I get sucked right into it. I can forget about what’s going on IRL (in real life) for a little while. I block the whole world out when I read, and if the world minds I tell it to bite me.
Writing is a bit different for me. I need to concentrate on the words I’m typing. It’s a lot more difficult than reading. So while I do enjoy it, it seems a lot more like work than reading is. That itself may stem from my depression, though. My feeling of not being good enough. Everything I write is crap. How many times have I said to myself “this story sucks, I should just chuck it and start a new one”? More times than I can count. Depression makes me think my ideas suck, and thinking my ideas suck makes me depressed. It’s a lose-lose.
What about you, readers? Do you struggle with depression as well? Do you think the fact that you choose to write has anything to do with it? Or are you a happy-go-lucky writer who doesn’t see how depression and writing could ever be related? Share!
I’ve suffered from depression for as long as I can remember. My classmates in eighth grade signed my yearbook with messages like “cheer up, it’ll get better” and “don’t kill yourself”. I’ve gone to shrinks, I’ve tried a ton of different medications. I’m at the point where my depression has become “manageable”. But I’ve resigned myself to the fact that I will most likely suffer from it for the rest of my life.
I’ve also always loved to read and write, since I was very young. Reading has always been an escape for me. If the story is good, I get sucked right into it. I can forget about what’s going on IRL (in real life) for a little while. I block the whole world out when I read, and if the world minds I tell it to bite me.
Writing is a bit different for me. I need to concentrate on the words I’m typing. It’s a lot more difficult than reading. So while I do enjoy it, it seems a lot more like work than reading is. That itself may stem from my depression, though. My feeling of not being good enough. Everything I write is crap. How many times have I said to myself “this story sucks, I should just chuck it and start a new one”? More times than I can count. Depression makes me think my ideas suck, and thinking my ideas suck makes me depressed. It’s a lose-lose.
What about you, readers? Do you struggle with depression as well? Do you think the fact that you choose to write has anything to do with it? Or are you a happy-go-lucky writer who doesn’t see how depression and writing could ever be related? Share!
Monday, June 28
Why writers make excuses: What if it’s not fear? What if it’s just laziness / lack of motivation?
In my second-to-last post, I pondered the possibility of getting more writing done without my laptop. As you know if you read my previous post, I got some writing done – but at work, not at home. Last Monday & Tuesday I got around 200 words (total) written, some at work and the rest using my alphasmart. Then my laptop returned on Wednesday, which was earlier than I’d expected.
I haven’t done any writing (just a little revising) since it’s return. I did a little on Thursday at work, but nothing on Friday or over the whole weekend.
Here’s the kicker – I even bought a new desk on Friday so I’d have my own little writing area instead of being stuck either on the couch or at the dining room table. It didn’t work. The unbearable heat this weekend probably played a factor in my complete lack of motivation, but I still feel crappy about it. I didn’t even look at my WIP until 6:30ish last night, and I only spent about an hour editing it before I gave up.
I can’t understand why I continue to self-sabotage myself. When I’m at my day job I can squeeze in some time to write. But when the weekend comes and I have a ton of free time, I can’t get anything accomplished! At first I thought it was fear; fear of success, fear of failure, fear of change. Now I’m thinking there’s more to it than that. When I really want to do something, I find a way to do it. I am good at organizing things, and I’m good at using my brain to figure things out (at work for example). So why do I keep NOT doing everything I need to do in order to finish this book???
It’s so much easier to just sit down and read a book than it is to try to write one. I’ve always loved reading and it comes naturally. Writing – although I have done some over the past 20+ years – does not come naturally at all. Because it’s harder? Because I’m lazy and don’t like to have to put forth a lot of effort if I don’t have to? What is it?!?
Maybe I should talk to a shrink, but I really can’t afford that at the moment (even with health insurance, the co-pays are outta control). All I can do at the moment is try to figure it out on my own. If that doesn’t work, I’ll just have to push myself to write, despite the nagging voice inside my head that tells me I should just pick a book out of my TBR pile instead of opening that word document. I only wish I could shut that annoying voice up for good, and keep on writing.
“Nobody said it was easy, but no one ever said it would be this hard” - Coldplay
I haven’t done any writing (just a little revising) since it’s return. I did a little on Thursday at work, but nothing on Friday or over the whole weekend.
Here’s the kicker – I even bought a new desk on Friday so I’d have my own little writing area instead of being stuck either on the couch or at the dining room table. It didn’t work. The unbearable heat this weekend probably played a factor in my complete lack of motivation, but I still feel crappy about it. I didn’t even look at my WIP until 6:30ish last night, and I only spent about an hour editing it before I gave up.
I can’t understand why I continue to self-sabotage myself. When I’m at my day job I can squeeze in some time to write. But when the weekend comes and I have a ton of free time, I can’t get anything accomplished! At first I thought it was fear; fear of success, fear of failure, fear of change. Now I’m thinking there’s more to it than that. When I really want to do something, I find a way to do it. I am good at organizing things, and I’m good at using my brain to figure things out (at work for example). So why do I keep NOT doing everything I need to do in order to finish this book???
It’s so much easier to just sit down and read a book than it is to try to write one. I’ve always loved reading and it comes naturally. Writing – although I have done some over the past 20+ years – does not come naturally at all. Because it’s harder? Because I’m lazy and don’t like to have to put forth a lot of effort if I don’t have to? What is it?!?
Maybe I should talk to a shrink, but I really can’t afford that at the moment (even with health insurance, the co-pays are outta control). All I can do at the moment is try to figure it out on my own. If that doesn’t work, I’ll just have to push myself to write, despite the nagging voice inside my head that tells me I should just pick a book out of my TBR pile instead of opening that word document. I only wish I could shut that annoying voice up for good, and keep on writing.
“Nobody said it was easy, but no one ever said it would be this hard” - Coldplay
Monday, June 21
A generous (writing-related) gift from a stranger
When I was in my plot obsession mode a month or two ago, I came across something (online) called the Prescription for Plotting workbook. I thought it sounded great and I wanted to purchase it. When I saw the price (which is quite reasonable, but unfortunately I am eternally broke), I sent an email to the woman (Carolyn Greene) who created the workbook, asking her if it could be purchased in .pdf form for a lower price. She replied and asked me for my mailing address so I gave it to her.
A few days later, I received a package in the mail. Carolyn had sent me a plot workbook as a gift! I was so surprised; I’m not used to such generosity from complete strangers. I felt a little strange accepting something without giving anything in return, so I sent her $10 by paypal. I also told her that I was going to blog about her kindness, in the hopes that maybe someone out there who needs some plot help might find out about her workbook and realize it’s the perfect thing for them!
The workbook consists of a 3-ring binder that holds a folder, a spiral notebook, a pencil case with a pencil and post-its, and plotting worksheets. (More info is available on her site, so please go check it out.) I’ve only skimmed through the workbook as of yet because I had a busy weekend, but there is some great stuff on Carolyn’s plotting sheets! She really knows what she’s talking about!
If you need some help with plotting, or know anyone else who does, I highly recommend the Prescription for Plotting workbook. You can make copies of her worksheets so that you can use it for each and every story you write. If you'd like to pass this story along, please feel free to do so. I am very grateful to Carolyn for giving me something that she obviously put a lot of time and hard work into.
One last thing – how am I doing without my laptop? Eh, not so good. I managed to write almost 1,400 words on Thursday and over 700 on Friday... but that was at work (I love slow days lol!). I got just about nothing accomplished this weekend, except I did start reading “Contact” by Susan Grant because it’s a paranormal romance, and I know you’re supposed to read as many books as possible in the genre you’re writing in. I like it a lot so far, 2 thumbs up. But let’s hope I get my laptop back soon, preferably by Friday or Saturday!
That’s all for now, hope everyone had a nice weekend (& I hope Friday gets here before we know it!)!
A few days later, I received a package in the mail. Carolyn had sent me a plot workbook as a gift! I was so surprised; I’m not used to such generosity from complete strangers. I felt a little strange accepting something without giving anything in return, so I sent her $10 by paypal. I also told her that I was going to blog about her kindness, in the hopes that maybe someone out there who needs some plot help might find out about her workbook and realize it’s the perfect thing for them!
The workbook consists of a 3-ring binder that holds a folder, a spiral notebook, a pencil case with a pencil and post-its, and plotting worksheets. (More info is available on her site, so please go check it out.) I’ve only skimmed through the workbook as of yet because I had a busy weekend, but there is some great stuff on Carolyn’s plotting sheets! She really knows what she’s talking about!
If you need some help with plotting, or know anyone else who does, I highly recommend the Prescription for Plotting workbook. You can make copies of her worksheets so that you can use it for each and every story you write. If you'd like to pass this story along, please feel free to do so. I am very grateful to Carolyn for giving me something that she obviously put a lot of time and hard work into.
One last thing – how am I doing without my laptop? Eh, not so good. I managed to write almost 1,400 words on Thursday and over 700 on Friday... but that was at work (I love slow days lol!). I got just about nothing accomplished this weekend, except I did start reading “Contact” by Susan Grant because it’s a paranormal romance, and I know you’re supposed to read as many books as possible in the genre you’re writing in. I like it a lot so far, 2 thumbs up. But let’s hope I get my laptop back soon, preferably by Friday or Saturday!
That’s all for now, hope everyone had a nice weekend (& I hope Friday gets here before we know it!)!
Wednesday, June 16
Will I get MORE or LESS writing done without my laptop for a week? (An experiment forced upon me by HP)
My new-ish (bought it about a year ago) laptop needs to be sent to HP to have its random shutting off problem fixed. I shipped it today, and am already having withdrawals. (I am writing this now on my work computer and will probably finish it on my boyfriend’s computer later, if you’re wondering). I know I’ll be without it this weekend, but I hope I at least get it back by next Friday or Saturday.
The good thing is that at least I have an alphasmart (a.ka. Dana or Neo)! (For those of you who don’t know what they are, you should totally check them out. Much cheaper and lighter than a laptop, perfect if all you really need it for is writing. And you can almost always find a decent amount of them selling for pretty cheap on ebay.) I just hope that I’ll actually use it for the next 5-10 (???) days while my laptop is MIA!
And of course I can also use this laptop-free time to read. I’ve bought a few books on craft that I haven’t done more than skim b/c I’m always on my laptop. I also have a few books on my new kindle my boyfriend got me for my birthday a month ago. Not to mention I'll have time for some non-writing or reading activities (*gasp* did I really write that? LOL) So maybe this time without a laptop will end up being beneficial to me. Guess only time will tell!
I'll keep y'all posted on how I’m surviving without my addiction to constant internet availability. I've been thinking that I really need a break from it anyway, I've become way too wrapped up in tweeting, blogging (more reading than posting obviously lol), workshopping, etc. over the past few months & haven't spent enough time on my actual writing. What about you guys? Do you find yourself wasting way too much time on the internet? And if so. do you force yourself to take a break once in a while, or do you just make excuses (like I usually do) and say you're doing "research" or taking a "quick" (which it never is!) break etc.?
The good thing is that at least I have an alphasmart (a.ka. Dana or Neo)! (For those of you who don’t know what they are, you should totally check them out. Much cheaper and lighter than a laptop, perfect if all you really need it for is writing. And you can almost always find a decent amount of them selling for pretty cheap on ebay.) I just hope that I’ll actually use it for the next 5-10 (???) days while my laptop is MIA!
And of course I can also use this laptop-free time to read. I’ve bought a few books on craft that I haven’t done more than skim b/c I’m always on my laptop. I also have a few books on my new kindle my boyfriend got me for my birthday a month ago. Not to mention I'll have time for some non-writing or reading activities (*gasp* did I really write that? LOL) So maybe this time without a laptop will end up being beneficial to me. Guess only time will tell!
I'll keep y'all posted on how I’m surviving without my addiction to constant internet availability. I've been thinking that I really need a break from it anyway, I've become way too wrapped up in tweeting, blogging (more reading than posting obviously lol), workshopping, etc. over the past few months & haven't spent enough time on my actual writing. What about you guys? Do you find yourself wasting way too much time on the internet? And if so. do you force yourself to take a break once in a while, or do you just make excuses (like I usually do) and say you're doing "research" or taking a "quick" (which it never is!) break etc.?
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