Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts

Saturday, October 15

where I’ve been and where I’m (hopefully) heading

(note: I actually started writing this post a few weeks ago but then I got sick w/ a really bad cold, not to mention I’ve been swamped w/ school work.)

I’ve been in a funk for the past few weeks (months?). I haven’t done much writing. I haven’t done much of anything (besides the bare minimum of school work I can get away with doing while keeping my grades up). I usually love summer, but this summer was kind of a downer. The basement apartment I live in was almost always hot and humid. Thank goodness for the AC we got for our bedroom or we never would’ve been able to sleep at night! But who wants to spend the whole freaking day in their bedroom to stay cool? So it’s been hot, and I’ve been lazy.

But now it’s October. It’s been 2011 for ten months and I haven’t accomplished any of my writing goals. I’ve continued to take online writing workshops, but as far as working on my manuscript goes... that went nowhere. I actually was planning on attending the NJRWA conference (which is in two weeks), but I cancelled my registration a few weeks ago. A lot of it has to do with my monetary situation (my debt is slowly increasing since unemployment barely covers the bills) – I just can’t logically afford to go to a conference right now. But also, it’s because I’d thought I’d have a manuscript ready to pitch by now, and I’m not even CLOSE.

With NaNoWriMo coming up again soon, I figure now is a good a time as any to try again. I also think I need to write a serious outline for the new novel that I want to right. I think a lot of my giving up on my past manuscripts is that I get stuck 5, 10, 20 thousand words in and I can’t figure out what’s supposed to happen next, or how it’s supposed to happen. While I usually have an idea of where the story’s headed, I tend to leave the details to figure themselves out. And, as you might’ve guessed by now, so far they haven’t done a great job of it!

I’ve been working on plotting my NaNo novel thanks to Jennifer from Procrastinating Writers. I signed up for her “Creating Your NaNoWriMo Road Map” workshop and have been plugging along with the help of her worksheets. I think my idea is coming together nicely. It’s going to be a post-apocalyptic romance, a bit different from the two previous sci-fi romance manuscripts I worked on.

(Which also explains the aesthetic changes I made to my blog. I wanted to give it a more “end of the world” type feel, instead of the sci-fi, outer space one. You like?)

NaNo is definitely going to be tough this year, though. I have two papers due soon (for one class, our first draft is due at the end of October, but the professor is going to make us revise it if she makes changes to our draft; the other paper is due the first week of December but if I wait ‘till Dec. 1 to start it I’ll be screwed).  Not to mention the usual school work and tests that come w/ five pretty hard classes (three of which have to do w/ accounting). So it’s definitely going to be a challenge, but I am gonna give it a shot!

So who else is w/ me this November? Leave me your NaNo name and once the buddy feature is working again, we can be friends!  :)

Sunday, July 31

Camp NaNoWriMo anyone?

I'm debating signing up for Camp NaNoWriMo this August (if you haven't heard about it yet, click the link). I failed NaNoWriMo last year (2010), as well as in 2009 and a few others years that I attempted it. So what makes me think I can succeed this time? I really don't know. I do know that in order to win, I need to believe I can. Considering I've barely written a few hundred words over the past month, writing 1667 words a day will be quite a challenge for me. But August is the perfect time for me to try. My online summer class ends on the 4th, and I don't start my fall classes until September 1st. I have nothing coming up that I need to work on, nowhere to go, etc. If I'm going to bang out 50k words in a month, the time is now.

Whaddya think? Should I go for it? I'll have to stop sleeping 'till noon - 1 pm every day, for starters. But I want to do that anyway. I need to go back on Weight Watchers starting Monday too. And I need to start exercising. So if I start getting up at a decent hour, I can find plenty of time to write. Can I find the motivation to write is the question. That is what I've been severely lacking the past few months. Having a concrete goal (50k in a month) is a good place to start, but I'm just not sure if it will be to overwhelming for me.

Hmmmmm. I'll letcha know what I decide in a few days. How 'bout you? Are you doing Camp NaNo yourself in August? Did you do it this July? Do you think NaNo should just stick to November? I'd love to know what you think  :)

Sunday, January 2

Jumping on the 'Goals for 2011' bandwagon (better late than never)!

2010 was a rough year for many people. My year wasn’t all that bad, but it wasn’t that great either. I lost my job in July, which has definitely put a financial strain on me. But I’m a whole lot happier now than I was while I was working at that job I hated with a boss that I couldn’t stand. And being out of work for five months helped me realize that I need to go back to school. While I do still hope to write and publish novels in the near future, I’ve discovered (mostly from reading blogs and websites online) that making a living from writing novels is difficult, and it can take years to make enough money from your writing to be able to quit your day job and still be financially secure.

I also discovered a lot about writing and publishing this year. Last January, I had no idea what getting a novel published would entail. Now I know all about agents and queries and synopsises. I participated in a ton of workshops to help me hone my craft. I read a lot of books, both fiction and non-fiction (the latter were mainly writing instruction). I joined a few writing organizations and attended two writers’ workshops (Pennwriters in May and RWA Nationals in July). Although I am proud of what I did accomplish in 2010, I am disappointed that I didn’t accomplish my goal of completing a (90,000 or so words) manuscript.

So that is my #1 goal for 2011. To finish, edit/revise and eventually query a sci-fi romance manuscript by the end of the year. I’d like to have my first draft finished by my birthday (May 12). It would be great if I could have it revised and 95% ready-to-go by RWA Nationals in June. But I don't want to push myself, especially since I will also be going to school full-time all year. It's going to be quite a change of pace for me.

Along with my goal of a completed manuscript in 2011, I also have the usual new year goals - lose weight (I'd like to lose 25 pounds by June, which is only a pound or so a week) and get control over my spending. I also want to set and stick to a blogging schedule (I'm thinking a Mon, Wed, Fri schedule should work), and come up with more interesting topics to post about (not that my fabulous life isn't exciting enough - HAH!). And I need to get my website operational. I'm paying hosting fees but I'm not updating the site. I even paid to have someone design the backgrounds etc. for me, but since I couldn't afford to have someone handle the whole 9 yards, it's just gathering (rehetorical) dust in cyberspace at the moment.

Oh, and for those of you (like myself) who like to be part of a group that reaches for goals together,  check out Kelly Stone's 90 Day Writing Challenge. You make your own goal of how much you want to write each day. If 1000 words a day is too much for you, vow you'll at least get to 500 (which is what I did). Whatever works for you. I love one-size-fits-all challenges like this.

On that note, I have a few hundred more words I need to get written. Until next time...   :)

Thursday, December 23

I've made a big decision - I'm going back to school!

Once the unemployment benefits extension was officially passed last week, I realized there could be no better time for me to go back to school for accounting than right now. NY state has a program where a person can continue collecting unemployment while going to school without having to look for a job. As anyone who's browsed the help wanted section/craigslist/careerbuilder etc. in the past few months can tell you, there are no decent jobs out there right now. The only jobs that are available want to pay you SH*T money. I'm talking $5-10 less (an hour) than what I was making at my previous job. It's disgusting. And it drives me nuts that the government and the media are trying to tell us that the recession is getting better. IT'S NOT.

But enough about that! I've realized that, as much as I love writing (fiction), it's not a career option for me right now. I don't enjoy freelance (article) writing, and even if I did I know that it's a really tough market to break into right now. I'm unpublished with two unfinished manuscripts to my name that are taking me forever to write. And I do not want to go back to working as a peon (or pee-on, which is how most of us feel), aka an administrative assistant. It's a horrible job where you get treated like crap.  You do the hard work for a sh*t salary while you watch the higher-ups get paid the big bucks for having passing off their meaningless tasks to you.

I plan on taking classes through the summer and winter breaks, so it may be possible for me to graduate (with my associates, not bachelors unfortunately) in Dec 2011. It depends on how many credits from my past college courses they will accept towards the accounting degree. What I also love about it is that the college I'm going to (the local SUNY school) offers many of their courses online now! (When I first attended college in 1996 - this same college, actually -, I don't think I could've imagined such a wonderful thing! LOL) I might be able to take 3 of the 4 classes I need to take this semester through the internet. Woooooo hoooooooo!

Of course I still plan to continue writing. I'm hoping that going back to school may actually help me get more writing done, as crazy as it sounds. Because I've been suffering lately from that problem most people only wish they had - too much time on my hands! You know how they always say so many writers wish they could quit their full time jobs and spend all day writing? (Hell, I was one of those very people before I got laid off in July!) And then those same people end up finding other things that need to be done during the day and don't get nearly enough writing done as they should? Yep, that's me! I've been surfing the web (yes, mostly looking at writing-related things, but still), reading books on craft, etc. But I still haven't been doing any actual writing.

I need to set up a daily schedule and stick to it. The cold weather has turned me into a bear over the past month - I've been hibernating! I sleep till noon almost every single day b/c it's so nice and warm under my covers and I don't want to get up. But that's not realistic, nor is it healthy. Yes I hate winter and I hate the cold, but wishing away 4-5 months every year isn't a great way to live. I'm hoping I'll be able to snap out of my little funk once the new year hits!

On that note, I want to wish everyone who celebrates a very Merry Christmas! I hope Santa gets you everything you wanted and more (a publishing contract maybe?!?  ;-)  'Till next time!

Tuesday, December 14

How do I make my hero NOT so nice? (Advice please!)

I was re-reading my WIP the other day when I realized something - my hero/MC's love interest is too damn nice. He cares about the MC/heroine from the get go, as soon as he has to carry her sick mother back to her room. This is not good. There needs to be some romantic (& sexual) tension. No one wants to read a book where the hero is all la-de-dah oh sure I'll help you, damsel in distress! You're sweet & beautiful & perfect, and I'm a hero so what else would I do?!? Hello snooze fest!!!!

I went back, edited a bit and got rid of some of his niceness. I emailed my first chapter to my friend to read over, and she told me that he's still too nice (which I'd kinda figured anyway). So now what? I don't want him to be an as*hole or anything, of course. But I don't want him falling at my MC/heroine's feet the moment they meet, either. Is there some sort of happy medium I can find?

For those of you who read (and/or write) romance, do you prefer if the male character starts out as a total d*ck and during the course of the book becomes a guy who actually does have a heart? (Keep in mind that he isn't my protagonist in this story, so I don't want the story to be all about his changes, but hers.) Or I could go the route that he is a nice guy, but due to miscommunications, etc., he seems like a giant douche bag in the eyes of my MC/heroine.

So whaddya guys think? Any thoughts? Or can anyone recommend an article/blog/book whatever that may help me figure out where to go with this? Help a newbie writer out and leave me some thoughts! I'll toss some virtual cookies your way (chocolate chip of course, unless you prefer another kind!)  ;-)

Monday, December 6

Cart before the Horse? (or the confusion of an unpublished, newbie writer)

Usually once someone decides they want to be a doctor, plumber, teacher, whatever, they research what needs to be done before they can start their dream job. That's what I did when I made the decision to get serious about my writing this past January; I started researching how to write a novel and get it published. I must say, I was completely overwhelmed with the amount of information I found on the internet about writing and publishing. I started off following a just few author/agent/editor/publisher blogs and I now follow well over a hundred.

I've joined Pennwriters (a writing group based in PA with over 300 members) and the Romance Writers of America (as well as a few subgroups of RWA, including my local Long Island chapter and FF&P (Fantasy, Futuristic & Paranormal) online).

I took Holly Lisle's six month online course How to Think Sideways. I've taken nearly thirty (yes, 30 - ask paypal, I'm not kidding.) online workshops this year. I've attended two conferences (Pennwriters and RWA), and I've already signed up for one coming up in February (DFW in TX).

I blog. I tweet. I facebook (although it's mostly a personal profile, I have added authors/writers as friends, and I "like" publishers, agents, editors, etc.). I'm on Savvy Authors. I'm on Romance Divas.

I subscribe to Writer's Digest and The Writer (magazines). I have bought I don't know how many books on writing (mainly on the craft itself) this year (probably somewhere between ten and twenty), as well as borrowing a bunch from local libraries. I copy/paste, format and print articles that I read online that I think are helpful and put them in binders (along with lessons from the workshops I've taken).

Now that's dedication! (Right?) I've certainly done my homework! I would never presume to submit an unedited first draft to a publishing house. I know about revisions, query letters, the dreaded synopsis. I know most publishers won't look at an unsolicited manuscript unless it comes from an agent. I am a wealth of information!

There's just one thing I didn't get around to yet this year - finishing a complete first draft. I began a sci-fi romance manuscript in January, got almost 30k written. I took an online workshop in June that completely confused the hell out of me. In a good way, I mean - it helped me find my plot holes and discover ways that my story didn't make much sense. But it meant major revisions to what I'd already written and I wasn't sure where I wanted to go with that story anymore... so I put it aside.

I started plotting and planning my second (unfinished) manuscript in August, but didn't start actually writing it until November 1st. (Yes, I foolshly thought I could win NaNoWriMo.) Thanks to an almost last minute (less than three weeks prior) decision to move in the middle of November, I failed NaNo miserably (see my previous post). I have a little over 15k written on my current manuscript.

Of course, there are both pros and cons to spending the whole year reading up on craft and taking workshops. One big pro is that instead of learning from my mistakes, I can learn before the mistake is made - which (hopefully) won't happen thanks to all I've learned! I know about plotting and outlining and character archetypes and the three act structure and... shall I go on? (Yes, I know you're all shaking your heads and saying "please don't!") But the big con is, as I mentioned in my previous paragraph, I have no completed manuscript. As I've read many times in articles and blogs, you can't edit a blank page. You can't edit one, you can't submit one, and you certainly can't publish one.

I don't regret any of the time (or money) I spent honing my craft this year. I just hope that it helps me in the future to be a better writer. I know I have talent and I've been told by others that they enjoy my writing. Now my #1 goal is to stop procrastinating by reading and researching how to write, and JUST WRITE. Please convince me it can be done  :)

Monday, November 29

It's Official: I Quit (a.k.a. Utter NaNoWriMo FAIL)

Moving in the middle of November was the absolute worst thing that could've happened to my nanowrimo. Packing took up way too much of my time. It utterly killed my story flow. Also not helpful was the cold I got the day after moving - which, btw, I still have!!!! I've been sick for 2 weeks now and it's driving me nuts!  Trying to write and unpack while continually coughing and blowing your nose is hell. The basement apartment I'm in now is very condusive to sleep, which means I've been getting up later and later these past few weeks (which means less time for writing!). Oh, and I (temporarily) jumped off the Weight Watchers wagon after we moved as well!

I plan to get things moving in the right direction again starting tomorrow (technically "today" I guess since it's after midnight  ;-). No more letting myself sleep 'till 10 or 11 every morning. I want to start getting up by 8-8:30 (on the weekdays - weekends I'll let myself sleep in). Tomorrow I'm gonna ease my way back into it by setting my alarm for 9 am. I'm also going back to WW with my friend on Tuesday, so I gotta get back on the ball with eating right starting when I wake up on Wed. I need to start exercising b/c I am way too lazy and out of shape. And, of course, I need to get more writing done. Less social networking, blog reading, etc., and more actual writing

How do you get yourself back on track after being off it for a while? Do you lack motivation sometimes (a lot of times)? What gets you going again?

'Till next time...!  :)

Sunday, November 21

The Fine Art of Blogging: more complicated than it sounds!

First off, I’d like to say hello to anyone reading this who found me through today’s Blog Jog. I hope you enjoy your visit to my blog. I’m giving away a romance novel (details at the end of this post) to one lucky reader, so don’t forget to leave me some comment love before you go!

I started this blog in February of this year. I was reading whatever I could get my hands (eyes?) on about how to write and how to get published. I kept hearing about this thing called a “platform”. Everyone said that writers needed to build an “online presence” and start blogging, tweeting, facebooking, etc. I figured blogging would be pretty easy, considering I’ve always loved to write (especially about myself – LOL). Over the past nine months, I’ve discovered blogging is a lot harder than it sounds. Coming up with new topics. Finding the time to write posts. Keeping up with comments (if you’re lucky enough to have a post that gets a lot of attention, that is).

Reading blogs can be difficult too, especially if you follow a lot of them. I follow 135 (I just double checked). But that doesn’t stop me from always being on the lookout for more. Most blogs I follow have something to do with writing. I follow authors, editors, agents, publishers. I also follow other aspiring authors like myself. It’s nice to remind myself that I’m not on this journey alone. I can’t say that I read every post from every blog I follow. If I did, I’d have no time in my day for anything else! Usually I decide if it’s something I want to read by the title of the post (which works in most cases, though definitely not all).

Despite all the cons, however, there are also a ton of pros. I’ve met some great people thanks to social networking. I’ve also won some cool prizes by entering blog contests. Especially for writers, it helps a lot to know there are other people out there dealing with the same things you are. Writers block, rejection, doubt. You’ll always be able to find someone who can relate to what you’re going through. In my mind, that makes it all worth it.

What about you? How long have you been blogging, and do you enjoy it? Are you looking for more blogs to follow, or do you think you follow too many already? Leave me a comment with some of your thoughts, and you’ll be entered to win your choice of one of nine paperback romance novels. Title/author listed below – please let me know which book you’d prefer in your comment! Oh, and did I mention that if you follow my blog in addition to leaving a comment, you get 3 extra entries? ;-)         Good luck!

  • Sugar Creek by Toni Blake
  • Enemy Lover by Karin Harlow
  • I Love This Bar by Carolyn Brown
  • Wicked Becomes You by Meredith Duran
  • Dangerous Desires by Dee David
  • Crazy for Love by Victoria Dahl
  • Running Hot by Jayne Ann Krentz
  • The Perfect Poison by Amanda Quick
  • Master of the Highlands by Veronica Wolff (this one is actually signed by the author herself!)

Thank you for stopping by my Blog! Please explore all this Blog has to offer, then jog on over to A Book Inside. If you would like to visit a different Blog in the jog, go to http://blogjogday.blogspot.com/

Saturday, November 20

NaNoWriMo Week 3: Even farther behind (and hey, are you Blog Jogging tomorrow?!?)

Moving was quite the pain in the ass, as I'd known it would be. But as if that wasn't bad enough, I managed to catch my boyfriend's brother's cold! (I blame my dog for being a germ-spreader. He licks people he likes on the face. I know it's kinda gross, but I always thought it was too cute and never broke him of the habit lol.) I've been sick practically all week so I got very little unpacking done (and NO writing until Thursday night when I finally started feeling better). Thankfully I am feeling decent today, and I plan on cleaning and unpacking all day with my boyfriend (wheeeeeeeeee hah). If I'm lucky, I'll be able to fit a writing break in there somewhere.

My NaNo count is a little over 14k, which I believe is less than half of what I should have by now. Will I make it to 50k by Nov 30? It's looking doubtful, but I never say die! This weekend I will probably spend the majority of my time unpacking/cleaning, but on Monday I am getting back to writing!  If I can make a strong showing next week, it's possible I can pull it off. My family doesn't do much for turkey day, so I should definitely be able to get some writing done on Thursday too. We'll see how it goes - wish me luck!

Tomorrow is the second Blog Jog Day and I'm hoping it will be another success. I am giving away a romance paperback (winner's choice - check back tomorrow for the ones I have to offer) to one lucky commenter! It should be a lot of fun. If you want to check out some new blogs and win some cool prizes definitely take the jog tomorrow!

Now I am off to open some boxes. See you all tomorrow I hope!  =)

Sunday, November 14

NaNoWrimo Week 2: over 11k behind and falling fast

Packing for a big move SUCKS. It has monopolized almost my entire weekend. I wrote maybe 100-200 words on Friday, and no words yesterday or today. We're about 95% done. Everything that isn't in a box at this point isn't breakable and will just go in a plastic bag or something (except for the desktop computers which my boyfriend is waiting for the last minute to pack, despite the fact we both have laptops). Tomorrow the movers will come get the bed, couch, bookcases, tables, chairs, & computer desks (yes my boyfriend and I each have a desk lol).

I'm hoping I might be able to get a little writing done tonight, but I'm not betting on it. Tomorrow is basically a wash out, the whole day will be spent cleaning & opening boxes and all that. So I hope and pray that I can back on the ball on Tuesday and play catch-up for a week or so and get back in it. At least with unpacking, there's no real rush.

Also, I completely went off the Weight Watchers wagon this week. Between stress and eating out, I just couldn't stay OP (that's WW lingo for "on plan" or "on program"). Apparently WW is revamping their entire program on the 28th. I have no idea what they're doing, they've kept it pretty hush-hush at the meetings. So it'll be interesting to see what they've come up with.

I guess that's it for me, back to packing/cleaning. If you're doing nano along with me this month, I hope you're word count is higher than mine! If not, we can try to catch up together this week! 'Till then...   :)

Saturday, November 6

NaNoWriMo status update: Week 1 - behind schedule

How many words should've been written by the end of day 5: 8,355
How many words I've written so far: 5,672

I hurt my neck sometime last week, and it continued into this week. I usually sleep on my back, but the pain was so bad that I did most of my sleeping on my side. I woke up a lot during the night from being uncomfortable, so I didn't sleep very well. My monthly visitor also dropped by (sorry if that was TMI for anyone!) and drained me of a lot of my energy. On top of that I decided November was a good time to join Weight Watchers (wtf was I thinking?!?) so I went to my first meeting Tues night.  Dieting always takes a toll on me, especially for the first week or 2. So it's definitely been a rough week for me.

I went to the chiropractor on Wed - didn't wanna go cuz I have no health insurance, but my mom was nice enough to give me $20 towards it and the visit was only $40 - and he cracked by neck back into place which was unpleasant but it helped!  So I'm feeling better today, but my boyfriend and I have a TON of packing that must be done. I hope to get back on schedule in the next few days.

How's everyone else doing with their word count? And if you're not doing nanowrimo this year, are you completely sick of hearing about it yet?  ;-)

Saturday, October 30

Nanowrimo and moving out!

It's gonna be a very busy next few weeks for me!  My boyfriend and I are moving on November 15, and we haven't started packing yet.  Luckily I'm still out of work (that might sound strange, but in this situation it's true!), so at least I don't have to worry about balancing nano and packing (and then eventually UNpacking) with a full time job.  Plus I finally got my laptop back from HP yesterday and my boyfriend helped me put back on all the programs it had before I sent it away.  So it is finally nano-ready!

But am I nano-ready?  I have a little plot and character info prepared, but not as much as I should.  I hope to work on that a bit tomorrow (not tonight, since I'm hosting a Halloween party that starts in less than 2 hours!).  Apparently the downstairs tenants managed to knock a cable wire out somewhere while they were moving yesterday or today, so the television in the living room isn't working.  My man is obviously annoyed, but it's good for me 'cuz that means he'll be out most of tomorrow watching football at someone else's house!  ;-)

I'm a bit nervous about finishing 50,000 words while packing and moving, but to be honest I think I'd be nervous even without the move.  I've mentioned before - but it bears repeating - that the most I've ever written for one manuscript before throwing in the towel is 30,000 words.  So if I can finish November with 50k (I'd love to write even more than that, but I don't wanna pressure myself) I'll really feel like I accomplished something.

My plan as of now is to post once a week (most likely every Friday) on how I'm keeping up with nanowrimo.  Considering I don't usually post more than once a week as it is, it shouldn't be much of a change for my followers anyway  *wink*

OK time for me to do my hair and get all dolled up for my party tonight.  (I'm going to be the cowardly lion from the wizard of oz, my little chihuahua is gonna be a mailman!  I'll try to post a few pics tomorrow or the next day if I can.)  Meanwhile, let me know if you're going to be doing nano along with me (and if so, add me as a friend !) or if you think it's totally overrated!  And don't forget to have a Happy Halloween!

Tuesday, October 12

Book in a week? Or a month? (How long does (or should) it take to write a manuscript?)


I just took a great workshop from April Kihlstrom called “Book in a Week” (for more information click here).  The point is to give yourself one week where you do as much writing as you possibly can, and hopefully get a big chunk of novel completed in 7 (technically 9 if you count 2 Saturdays and 2 Sundays) days.  It’s like nanowrimo divided by 4.3 (weeks in a month). 

The first 2 weeks of the workshop is set-up: April gives great lessons on the craft, as well as providing insightful questions to ask yourself when thinking up plot and characters.  I really got a lot out of her lessons.  Week 3 you’re basically on your own because it’s the writing week.  Unfortunately my laptop crapped out on me and I had to send it back to HP to get fixed, so I got very little actual writing done.

But that’s okay, because nanowrimo is almost here!  Just a few more weeks ‘till the crazies attempt to write 50,000 words in just 30 days.  I must admit I’ve attempted nano in the past and have not yet succeeded.  However, each November I gave it a shot, I’d had a full-time job.  This year (unless a miracle happens!) I won’t.  There will be NO excuse to not find the time to get it done.  In fact I’d like to be able to get to 75,000 words in November.  (I’d say 100k, but then I’d be pushing it – not that it’s not possible for anyone, it’s just *highly unlikely* for myself personally.)

I’ve never written more than 30,000 (approx) words for one story before.  I’ve never been able to finish a manuscript.  I certainly can’t become a published author if I don’t write.  I believe I have it in me, I just need to start having faith in myself.  My problem seems to be that the more I write, the more doubts I start to have.  My idea sucks, the characters suck, the plot sucks, etc.  I start beating myself up and end up putting the story to the side and starting something new instead.  IT NEEDS TO STOP!

So how ‘bout you?  How long does it usually take you to finish a manuscript?  Are you doing nano this year? Do you have any advice for me on how to finish what I start?

Sunday, October 3

Hi, my name is Meghan and I’m a writing workshop-aholic

When I found and signed up for my first online writing workshop, it was love at first yahoo group. I’ve already taken a TON of them this year, but for some reason it seems a whole bunch of good ones got scheduled for October. Presently I am taking (or will begin taking tomorrow):

Book in a Week by April Kilhstrom (more about this workshop next entry)
Finding the Book Ho in You
The Purpose Driven Scene
Character Journey workshop (Alicia Rasley)
Plotting for Un-Dummies
Magic, Monsters and Amour
Story, Theme and Vehicle
(Foreshadowing and Other Tricks ended as of today)

On top of that, next week starts the Muse Online Conference (which is free! But it’s way too late to sign up for this year’s if you haven’t yet, sorry to say)!

Usually I try not to take more than 3 (4 max) workshops a month, but as you can see I got a little carried away this month. I was actually lucky enough to WIN my way into the Alicia Rasley workshop from a comment I left on a blog post. The blog was giving away a free entry into the workshop and I doubted I’d win cuz I never win anything, but I did this time so that was way cool.

What about you, readers? Do you love online workshops as much as I do? Do you prefer the workshops you can attend in person? Or maybe you'd rather just read books or articles on writing instead of the whole “workshop” vibe? I’m curious to see if I’m the only one with this crazy addiction ;-)

Thursday, September 23

Time is something you can never get back...

I’ve been “trying” to write a novel for over nine months now (technically many years longer than that, but I really started working towards my goal in Jan). For months I wished I’d get laid off from my job (or win the lottery, though I knew that option was much less likely) so I could stay home and write every day, but still afford to pay my bills. At the end of July, I finally got my wish! My job let me go, but I can pay still pay my rent (thanks NYS unemployment).  Although rent is about all I can afford to pay right now, but that's another post...

Now you’d think the first thing I’d do after being laid off would be to start writing, right? Right. Except, no, wrong. Considering the company I worked for let me go on the Friday before my planned trip to FL for the RWA 2010 conference (nice place, right? Let’s let her go right before her vacation so she can worry the whole time about being broke when she gets back home!!!!), I figured I’d wait until I returned from my vacation (slash learning experience heh).

But then I decided to join the WWBC. For those who’ve read my previous entries, you know what I’m talking about. For those who haven’t, I’ll just say that it’s sort of like a critique group, except one person is in charge. Anyway, my intention for writing this post is not to talk bad about anyone, or to say “that sh*t sucked.” So I won’t trash talk it. But basically, it was a waste of my entire month of August, and most of my September.

Our first assignment was character profiles. I had to come up with an antagonist and write a background for him/her. I decided my antag was going to be my protag’s mother. I wrote up a profile. I sent it out. I was told that she didn’t make a good antag and I should come up with another. Hmmmm, I thought this was MY story here?... So I made a new one, an evil alien guy. Except, well, he wasn’t evil enough apparently. I revised him three times before I was told “ya know, he’s an okay antagonist, but how ‘bout you go back and work on the mother again.”

Hmmmmm.

I rewrite the mother’s profile a few more times. In the meantime I also wrote my protagonist profile, and my world-building profile (since most of the story is going to be occurring on an alien planet). Both of those I also rewrote three or four times (and each of these profiles is 9-10 pages btw). Not to mention I'm still working on making the alien guy more evil. By now, I am getting tired of this.

If I had simply filled out a character questionnaire (or something along those lines that you can find all over the internet), I would’ve finished my characters in a week or maybe less. But because between each of my profile rewrites I had to wait around for my next batch of “critiques” so I could rewrite my characters with everyone else’s opinions in mind, I ended up spending nearly 2 months just on my characters. No plotting, no scenes, no nothing else. Just three freaking characters (I hadn’t even gotten to the heroine’s love interest yet!!!) and a planet that was still a bit too similar to Earth.

Last night I decided to break free. I am no longer doing WWBC. I’m not waiting around for other people to tell me if my writing is good or not. ‘Cuz I know it is. You learn by doing, not by waiting. And if my writing isn’t “publishable” yet, I’d rather at least have written something than to say “well I’m waiting for the go-ahead from my crit partners.” Like I said earlier, it’s MY book. My story. No one else’s. If it sucks a-s-s, it’s mine. And if it gets published and people actually enjoy it, it’s - guess whose? - mine!

So now, if you’ll excuse me, I’ve got some writing to do. I’ve got almost two lost months to make up for!  ;-)

Friday, September 17

Do you believe in psychics?

This Monday night, my friend and I went to see a psychic. It was my third time seeing one, and I was a little nervous. I’m very shy around total strangers for one. Then there's the fact that I was going to listen to someone I'd never met tell me things that may (or may not) happen to me in the future. It’s kinda freaky, if you believe. And I’m not saying I believe that all psychics are right about everything they tell you. Obviously some psychics are full of sh*t, and have their manipulative ways to figure out what the right things to tell you are.

I do believe that some people have a power, though.  A sixth sense maybe. They can’t predict the winning lotto numbers (or there’d be a hell of a lot more rich psychics out there!), but they can get a feeling for future events. That’s just my opinion of course. I know many people have many different thoughts about psychics, but fortunately that’s not what this post is about lol.

The psychic told me a lot of things on Monday night that really rang true. He mentioned my financial trouble. (Yes, I know the economy sucks and almost everyone is having financial trouble now. But I have over 10k in credit card debt, which not everyone else can say.) He said starting next year things will get better and I’ll slowly start to claw my way out of it (fingers crossed). He told me that he sees a lot of doors opening for me in the next few months. He said I have a lot of things going on that I need to focus on.

He told me I have a big decision to make soon regarding my career. (For those who don’t know, I was laid off from my job at the end of July. I’m still unemployed. I did some research into freelance writing full-time, but I don’t think it’s for me. Now I need to teach myself Quickbooks so I can hopefully get a job in bookkeeping, b/c I don’t want to go back to being a lowly administrative assistant.) He also said that he sees angels watching over me (that part I’m not so sure about but who knows).

The best part of this, of course, was that he said my writing is going to work out. He said he could see me at a book signing. He asked how old I was (32) and he said he thinks I will be either 35 or 37. He described the cover of my book to me – black with swirls (like dust swirls from rings around planets) and a big red star right in the middle. He also said he saw me writing paranormal and sci-fi, and I admitted I am working on a sci-fi romance at the moment. Pretty freaking cool.

So whaddya you guys think? Think there might be a spark of truth to what he told me? Or do you think he was full of dog crap? If any of you reading this have been to a psychic before, I’d love to hear what you thought of it. (Even if you hated it and felt the person was a total rip off.) Let me know your thoughts!